Mind Bottling, Isn't It?

The other day I was high as fuck with my friend and he asked me "What is the meaning of life" We laughed at how stereotypical we were being (because stoners ask weird questions when high) (I'm not a stoner tho) (Love em tho lol) Anyways. Tonight I was laying in bed asking myself what the meaning of my life was and then I realized the answer.  The meaning of life is up to me and only me . Everyone has a different soul, mind and body. Therefore there is no such thing as the " meaning of life " because each and everyone lives and breaths in a different life. For some mothers the meaning of their life is their children. That kind of meaning is permanent. I've realized the meaning of most people's lives are actually other people . Weird right? I swear that I've wanted to pack my bags and just leave home because I was so stressed out. But I didn't only because I knew my mom and sisters needed me. They kept me here and only them. I now know ...

So today I was at Wally World (Walmart) with my mom and it's been a while since we've you know went to a place together. I realized how much I hate being yelled at 24/7 See I'm a person that enjoys fun fun fun fun . I love going to grocery stores and running down the isle with my friends. Drinking soda and chips while walking down the isle pushing my mamis (friends) in the cart. I like to make fun of everything that I do. No boredom will be tolerated around me. What I hate  is when old people like my mom ( who I love ) try to ruin it. I'm young and a little bit dumb and I just want to enjoy my young life while it's still young. I also strongly dislike when boring adults try to use the excuse "People are looking" "What will they think" "You're embarrassing me" LIKE BITCH! I honestly feel like people who have known me for a long time, even if they dislike me should probably have figured out how much I truly do not give a fuck....

It's really hard to build a new life Trying to become a better person almost seems impossible Everything that you're trying to change about yourself Seems to be what the people who mean the most only see When you do good But when you do bad there's always an "I told you so" without hesitation Like they're waiting for you to just fuck up If you loved me so much why don't you support me? If you loved me so much why can't you accept me? If you loved me so much why can't I feel what you say you have for me? Instead of criticizing and causing pain Once you decide that there's no way to become that person you want to be with all the negativity around You mentally move away from them While others could never picture you as the person you once were That's all the ones that are dearest to you can see Why can't they accept change? I did.