Mind Bottling, Isn't It?

So I've been recently searching for a job and it seems like its fucking impossible to find a place that's actually hiring. These questions on the application are sooo stupid. I mean why the hell do they need to know sooo much? And the interviews are the stupidest fucking thing in the world. We all know what we're actually thinking even the interviewer knows what we're actually thinking because they're thinking the same exact thing. Here's a little what we say VS. what we want to say. Question: Why would you like to work here? What we say: I would love to gain experience ect. ect. What we want to say: Bitch I CLEARLY just want to get money. I don't even wanna work at this shitty place I just want money. Question: What is your availability? What we say: All business days from opening time to closing time of course ;) What we want to say: Uhhhh well i'm actually not available at all if you include all of the time that I need for using the internet...

I've always had a problem with letting people that I've had feelings for go. When I feel such a connection with someone I fail to give up on what I feel. I search for that feeling from other people, but always fail to feel it. Sometimes I end up with rebounds knowing that there's no way in hell it's going to last but yet still find myself getting attached. I know so many faces now that I pretend not to when walking past them on the street. Does that make me strong or afraid? I get so confused. Specially when an ex wants me back. Its like do I give into what they and I want? Or do I move onto better and save myself from getting hurt? I have one ex that I broke up with over 20 times. I mean it's ridiculous how many times we broke up and then got back together. Even when we were just friends we'd argue non-stop. but I loved him. I loved him so fucking much it scared me. Every time we broke up I cried my eyes out until my eyes couldn't even produce any more ...