Mind Bottling, Isn't It?

So I've been recently searching for a job and it seems like its fucking impossible to find a place that's actually hiring. These questions on the application are sooo stupid. I mean why the hell do they need to know sooo much? And the interviews are the stupidest fucking thing in the world. We all know what we're actually thinking even the interviewer knows what we're actually thinking because they're thinking the same exact thing. Here's a little what we say VS. what we want to say. Question: Why would you like to work here? What we say: I would love to gain experience ect. ect. What we want to say: Bitch I CLEARLY just want to get money. I don't even wanna work at this shitty place I just want money. Question: What is your availability? What we say: All business days from opening time to closing time of course ;) What we want to say: Uhhhh well i'm actually not available at all if you include all of the time that I need for using the internet...

Enough with the poem shit Ive got all my popular thoughts out for now. My next subject is going to be about having children. Now as a young female I am required by society and dumb ass religion to get married and have children and blah blah blah. I am so sick and tired of peoples shocked facial expression when I say "O I dont want kids" If you grew up with an extemely large amount of siblings like I did then you probably understand where im coming from. Or you could be in complete disgust and completely disagree. I think that growing up with a big family could go either way about having kids. Either you want a lot of kids or none at all. Me personally being the oldest of 5 girls is exhausting and a blessing at the same time. I couldnt ever imagine my life without even one of my sisters even if things would be easier. BUT having siblings is the closest thing to having your own children and trust me if I had the choice to not have 6 kids, Id choose it. Besides...

In all honesty, I've never really known how to you know write. I know it sounds silly but I always have so many thoughts in my head at once that once I start on one topic; it always leads to another. Which can be frustrating, especially when it comes to trying to maintain a diary or a blog like this. My mind has so much depth that i get lost in it all the time.