Mind Bottling, Isn't It?

Enough with the poem shit Ive got all my popular thoughts out for now. My next subject is going to be about having children. Now as a young female I am required by society and dumb ass religion to get married and have children and blah blah blah. I am so sick and tired of peoples shocked facial expression when I say "O I dont want kids" If you grew up with an extemely large amount of siblings like I did then you probably understand where im coming from. Or you could be in complete disgust and completely disagree. I think that growing up with a big family could go either way about having kids. Either you want a lot of kids or none at all. Me personally being the oldest of 5 girls is exhausting and a blessing at the same time. I couldnt ever imagine my life without even one of my sisters even if things would be easier. BUT having siblings is the closest thing to having your own children and trust me if I had the choice to not have 6 kids, Id choose it. Besides...

It's really hard to build a new life Trying to become a better person almost seems impossible Everything that you're trying to change about yourself Seems to be what the people who mean the most only see When you do good But when you do bad there's always an "I told you so" without hesitation Like they're waiting for you to just fuck up If you loved me so much why don't you support me? If you loved me so much why can't you accept me? If you loved me so much why can't I feel what you say you have for me? Instead of criticizing and causing pain Once you decide that there's no way to become that person you want to be with all the negativity around You mentally move away from them While others could never picture you as the person you once were That's all the ones that are dearest to you can see Why can't they accept change? I did.