Change

It's really hard to build a new life
Trying to become a better person almost seems impossible
Everything that you're trying to change about yourself
Seems to be what the people who mean the most only see
When you do good
But when you do bad there's always an "I told you so" without hesitation
Like they're waiting for you to just fuck up
If you loved me so much why don't you support me?
If you loved me so much why can't you accept me?
If you loved me so much why can't I feel what you say you have for me?
Instead of criticizing and causing pain
Once you decide that there's no way to become that person you want to be with all the negativity around
You mentally move away from them
While others could never picture you as the person you once were
That's all the ones that are dearest to you can see
Why can't they accept change?
I did.



Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Popping Babies

Enough with the poem shit Ive got all my popular thoughts out for now. My next subject is going to be about having children. Now as a young female I am required by society and dumb ass religion to get married and have children and blah blah blah. I am so sick and tired of peoples shocked facial expression when I say "O I dont want kids" If you grew up with an extemely large amount of siblings like I did then you probably understand where im coming from. Or you could be in complete disgust and completely disagree. I think that growing up with a big family could go either way about having kids. Either you want a lot of kids or none at all. Me personally being the oldest of 5 girls is exhausting and a blessing at the same time. I couldnt ever imagine my life without even one of my sisters even if things would be easier. BUT having siblings is the closest thing to having your own children and trust me if I had the choice to not have 6 kids, Id choose it. Besides...
Read more

Present

Healing is something that I so truly long for. It seems like I use the word at least once a day to remind myself what I am trying to do. I just want to be at that point where it hurts so little that I forgot what I was crying about in the first place. That point where I can look back and chuckle at hard I thought life was just to find out it gets harder. Your problems get bigger and I just had to become stronger. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of losing myself to my pain. I'm afraid of becoming stagnant in the point of my trauma. I don't want what I've been through to define me but it truly molded me in so many ways. So where do I find the balance? When is it that I come to that point in my life where I feel truly content? Like I've battled every battle and every trial. As time goes on i'm slowly but surely realizing that life isn't going to get any easier. Yesterday can no longer be touched and tomorrow is non existent. So I am choosing. I am choosing to live ...
Read more

She

Her personality was hard to miss Her face had common features but was different from others Her laugh was faked but confident  The way she talked was sincere, you could never tell if she was joking or not The way she stood was structured but free If you were lucky she'd glance at you for just a second, and when she did you were more than acknowledged  Her smile was inviting, but her voice is what keeps you from not introducing yourself She was the of person that people would hope to become Not in looks but in dept She was the type of person that others could barely keep up with The type of woman that was guided but then the one that guides other She didn't have many friends, and if she did have friends they were only the ones that were on her level You know, the type of women who were always busy and very bold personality wise All of her friends are just as blunt as her, just as set in their ways as her She didn't have any shame She lo...
Read more